god, i wonder how much happier i was last spring. [that's a question, not a statement.] have been broody, sad, melancholy lately. mainly just lonely and wounded..yes, that's right. i feel wounded and like i need to shelter/protect the self. cocoon, i guess.

and i've been dealing with A LOT of anxiety issues. it's never been a big of a deal as it is now. and is so unhelpful when it comes to writing papers...

which i'm doing, now. which is due, in one hour and fifteen minutes. which i do not have neither the introduction, outline, or thesis for. this is really the hardest paper i've had to write, mainly because i do not care about the topic whatsoever. groorgrumble. but i think that in times like this it is best to not prolong the misery and instead do what needs to be done. finish and move on to bigger and better things. yeah ha. damn, i want it to be warm again. can i live in perpetual spring? please?