chiflar

note to past, present, future self:
NEVER, EVER give up on spanish. it has never given up on you, and just gets infinitely better. you love it, it loves you. you will become fluent, you will become una maestra.

MOVE TO SPAIN. it's okay if you won't be able to understand anything, you can amaze people with your almodovar know-how.

todo estara bien, espanol te ama.

y yo, te amo espanol.

gurgle

vale, if you translate everything you read in spanish into english, and everything you write from english to spanish, you will never learn spanish, vale??? suck it up. learning a new language is hard and humbling, but you only get worse when you refuse to immerse yourself. ¡basta ya!

amor

things i am proud of that i did this weekend, starting friday:
went to class [woo; sometimes, this is an accomplishment all in itself]
30 min. of kant reading
organized/cleaned up my room
made lists
threw out my flowers/rinsed out the vases/put them away
threw out salad/rinsed out container
got lots of spinach, spring mix, and oranges & bananas

went out to dinner with phil, jess, jillian, leo. felt very collegy/admissions viewbookey. went to treasure island for dessert where procured fresh cherry juice [drink of the gods] & chocolate marble fudge rice dream [hahaha...ha];ate this all in the lounge while watching history of the world part 1 with allister, bob, rea. felt physically awful after doing so, but it was fun and renews my commitment to raw?

sent thank-you notes for tvw donations
met this really cool rock-climbing girl at treasure island
got rid of that shiny disk
earned $12 at drl
went back on sat, but only had one study which i had already done
took lots of pretty pictures
breathed deeply
organized music folder [ :O ]

woke up this morning at 11 & read robinson crusoe for an hour in bed. iza gonna finish it this weekend.
finished kant reading
signed up for exp
handwashed my green pants [don't get too excited-they're not actually green]
did a bit of diary transcription
crucigrama para español
estudiar y hacer tarea para estadística
corrected exercises/studied para mi prueba
cleaned/cut my nails
hoovered room
changed sheets
organized summer-wear
planned out outfits for this week
saw shadows

sunday:
went to see David Loy present, "The Attention-Deficit Society:. Consciousness Fragmented,. Commodified, and Controlled," which was absolutely amazing, and on the Depaul Lincoln Park campus, which I must admit, I'm kinda in love with. not the campus per say, but Lincoln Park. I'm definitely going to go back and just wander around.

did env reading, stat
went to bed at a decent hour [9ishhh]

mmkay, i don't have time to go into more detail. it's 8:31 pm sunday night, and i is gonna go wash my hair. oh, what an important activity.

el mango

Jaja, no es un mango, es un coco tailandés. Una broma, como siempre...

Anyways, de verdad, no quiero hablar en ingles, ¿bueno?

Hoy, he comido:
un mango [mmm]
cherry pomegranate naked
orange
huge green smoothie
mango raw revolution bar
1/2 slice ww bread w/ fresh ground pb
liter of fresh squeezed oj. mmm.

yay. food. tripped out on 2 hours of sleep this morning, pero después de la clase, me fue inmediamente al dormitorio y directamente a mi cama. slept for 3 hours and everything was much better. cleaned, organized, planned, read, made a great smoothie, had a good time w/ jillian & actually hung out in the lounge.

tomorrow i is going on two tours. pobreza y arquitectura. que interesante...
luego (quizas), hablaré sobre turismo, sobre asuntos de porciones, y otras cosas importantes...
o quizas no. no sé. cómo puedo saber?

buenas noches.

fotos

So I was talking to somebody about my blog, and it occurred to me that I don't have nearly enough pictures on it. So here you go:

This first set is all from spring break at home. Woo spring, woo home!

The salad & smoothie I blogged about here:



One of the most divine, satisfying, delicious things ever. A blend of banana, carrot & mango juice, and kiwi, in a cream-like consistency.


Hehe...I am enchanted by this picture/creation. Basically I just mixed pb, cocoa, & vanilla, and ate it with a spoon out of the fridge.



Not very raw...The sesame pasta (I think...) from the Thai Kitchen. They have these really neat box lunches now, and they are delicious! [Seriously, the pad thai is better than the pad thai at my thai place.]



I tried to make one/two of these a day. I brought the blender home, so smoothies abound!


And now we switch states...Back to Chicago!
Raw Nachos Supreme at the Chicago Diner. Fancier than how they were last time I had them. Not blow-your-mind amazing, because there is something offputting about them, but I do crave them. They are nice.


But this was really good...Raw Blueberry Cream Pie. Extremely satisfying, and the crust was so light [some raw crusts can be kind of oppressive with all of the nuts they grind into them...]


You know, somedays, I really am pensive, moody, and generally choleric. These days are perfect for this miraculous concoction. Discovered on Tuesday, at the Div Cafe. 2. 50 for a large soy chai, $2 if you bring your own cup. i really love div, and i really would like to start a tradition of a morning routine [which could involve soy chai!] got one right before hum class, and one right after too. it did make my stomach hurt a bit [since i basically never eat soy anymore], but it was so worth it. the flower was mine.


If I did my hair like this I would look like all of the vagina-endowed athletes at this school. Seriously.
We use the word, "vagina-endowed" because girl/female/gender are societal constructs. By we, I mean, me.


Much worse (initially) than it looks. I keep hurting myself at this school.


The funny things written on boards do alleviate some of the pain though. The Mumia thing was written by me.


I took a picture of myself at 3 am, attempting to do stat/feverishly searching for russian music videos. I got 2 hours of sleep that night, and almost passed out the following morning. The paper behind me says "Remember, you only have one life to live. And this is it. It's beautiful, charming, and a bit grandiose." Guess who made that one up? [we.]

almost done

and almost raw. i had this delicious portabella/arugula/red pepper sandwich at dinner today. and a slice of pita. and one french fry. and i don't really feel bad about it. kinda, because i lost my high, and i really do like the idea of eating 100% raw, but it felt good while i was doing it??

that's an awful reason. eh. i didn't really think about it. it was just kind of, "oh, this is good!"

eh, tomorrow!!

besides that, today i have eaten 3 oranges, 1 raw revolution choco coco bar, 1 rr chocolate raspberry bar, green smoothie, 1 black/blueberry naked rush. you know, i really am much happier when i am not eating at the dining halls and just grazing on fruit and drinking green smoothies at home....hmm....

see you later! spanish paper and problem set for tomorrow. rawr. [which would be fine except i have a vegan society, food of geniuses thing which i absolutely have to attend from 6:30-10. eh]

love you! today is a fantastic day. no?

ridiculously quick post

before i get ready for class...

today is a happy day. i just finished my foucault paper, and i am really excited about it. things i am interested in: ecogovernmentality, biopower, mental/cultural construction, how foucault relates to env, state of exclusion for animals, speciesism, perhaps becoming a writer, reading foucault's, butler's major works. reading kant and complaining about what a miserable, soul-less wretch he is. eco-tourism and imperialism. eco-imperialism??
i really should become an author. these are issues that i want to explore-and i can get paid to do it??

fabulous day for all!

i has done my homework

not really. i am in the midst of my third paragraph, but i did some really good research. now i'm off to eat a delicious raw dinner.

note to self: must read before death: as much as possible of foucault and butler. preferably read while young [so i can become angry and quote them in class].

oh man, people, i look disgusting when i'm not raw. why didn't anybody ever say anything?

seriously-raw is the right thing to do [for me], right now. i need to do it. i realized something interesting today- either i can eat the pain away [this doesn't happen you know; you just quell the pain for a while, but it comes back, and when it comes back, it's angry at you for ignoring it and feeding it plutonium], or i can deal with the pain right now. and it will suck. a lot. but it'll be better to deal with it now, and calm down, then later. metaphor for paper? do it now. or don't do it, feel bad about not doing it, and then suffer 3x later. okay, off to work.

a very nice old man just sat down across from me. i think he's a professor. he's adorable. i miss my grandpa.

so raw thing-i'm just going to do it. it's going to be hell sometimes-but i'm going to do it, resist, fight, not give in. just like i'm about to do my paper...

i have a paper to do

for tomorrow. and the day after. and i know where i want to go, and i know what i want to say [as far as the paper goes, anyways], and...i know...but it's still not on the paper. me aparece que 80% of the hardship of this school is just doing the work. the other 20% is certainly doing it (some of it) well. but i'm not worried about this. friday is the spanish, and for tomorrow, my teacher is so loving, accepting, and kind, that i feel comfortable. and judging from the course evals, most people get a's. i just don't want to do it. if i just had the presentation to do, it would be much easier. ya ay ay. instead i have to write down five pages worth of thoughts [this time, actually meaningful, interesting and important to me thoughts] about the env, and decon, & the foucault.

barbara duden is really neat. i would like to meet her. radical.
i want to go home-i want to go to bed-i want to see what the units sent me
i want to get my life in order, and i want my self back.
i'm tired. and i don't want to write this down. eh.

it is warm, and i wish we could just talk all day...